So I have come to realize that people throw the word "Love" around way to easily, and sometimes without meaning. Ever since I was little I was taught that "Hate" was a strong and hurtful word which in turn made me think that "Love" was strong, but not so hurtful. As you get older however, you realize that love hurts more than hate. People don't realize that when you say "I love you" to someone, it means to have a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person. It's a huge step of commitment and comfortableness. Now I don't want to sound all poo poo about this but for people like me, who have a huge heart and care about everyone in their lives, saying I Love You is a comforting thing. It makes us feel all warm and toasty inside. It gets us giddy and excited with feelings. But when you say that you love someone and then do something to make them think otherwise, it hurts like hell. You are putting yourself out on a limb when you express these feelings and it sucks when someone breaks that limb and leaves you tumbling until it hurts.
Don't get me wrong, love is a beautiful thing, but in other ways, it isn't oh so beautiful. I think it hurts more to experience love, then have your heart ripped out and stomped on. I may sound....what's the word.... pessimistic ? But it's 100% true. Love is a feeling from your heart, and like everyone knows, your heart is one of the most important organs in the human body. I'd rather hear someone say they hate me than be an indian giver with the word love. You don't give love and then take it back. I know many people don't agree with my opinion, but honestly, it scares the shit out of me to fall in love. I've never been in love, and I do want to, but I want to make sure that I am 100% in love with that special someone. I don't want to mislead anyone or break their heart. The reason why I'm afraid to experience love is because I see the world we live in today, and it's so much different than what it used to be. No one gets to know each other anymore, or go on dates. It's all about having fun, hooking up, and having sexy time. It's not passionate anymore, and I think that's why everything has changed. I would like to think that I'm never going to get a divorce or be alone for the rest of my life, but divorce is so common now...it almost seems like a trend. I feel that people rush into things now these days and think they love someone, then get married, have kids, then realize "Oh shit, I'm not in love." No one takes their time with things....and with love, you can't dick around with love. Love is no game or joke....it's serious, risky business (love that movie).
Point I'm trying to make is that Love is powerful, and compassionate. I just don't know if everyone in this world knows that....and it scares the bejesus out of me.
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